Thursday, January 25, 2007

Thursday Thirteen (13) Things I Like About Being Estranged

  • Not having calls about things they need me to do "right now" regardless of what I might be doing at the moment, or how far away I live.
  • Not having call backs until I relent when I say "no" to something.
  • Not needing to participate in stuff only the other person likes, and have anything I like to do scoffed at.
  • Not wanting to call them for emotional support for anything that I know I will never get.
  • Not having to pretend that everything is hunky dorey between us all ever, and especially at Thanksgiving or Christmas.
  • Having enjoyable holidays doing what I want, and not needing to plaster a smile on my face and bite my tongue so I don't have a terrets related "bitch" attack. That is the uncontrollable urge to scream out "bitch" at the monster.
  • Not having invites to family gathering soley as a purpose to be transportation for someone the monster wants to come.
  • Not having those uncomfortable birthday dinners where neither one of us knows what to say to the other, as there is really no relationship there.
  • Not needing to think of things or ways to "earn" the love and support of family members. Have gotten to the point where I believe they don't deserve my attention in any way.
  • Don't need to lie to relatives anymore about our relationship on a day to day basis.
  • Not seeing the monster, and not needing to pretend I like her if I do see her.
  • Not needing to pretend to listen to my dad's dysfunctional advice or give it any merit. Having been clear to him that when he has a successful marriage, family, or career then he can give me advice about those things. Until then sutty uppy.
  • The self esteem it gives me to not be anyone's doormat any longer.

1 comment:

crse said...

I LOVE this list. It is an incredibly freeing thing not to have to face things with dread and pretense. (or at least not in that particular area)